20 Pounds of Butter

That's part of what was in my shopping cart yesterday.  Along with seven dozen eggs, a gallon of whole milk and two pounds of cream cheese.  And I'm not finished.  I still need about 20 pounds of sugar, 15 pounds of flour and a pound of cocoa powder.

Why do I need all of this?  At the end of May, I agreed to do the wedding cake for the sister of my dear friend, Alicia.  I really didn't know what I was getting myself into at the time.  The wedding cake has evolved into a bride's cake, a groom's cake, a sheet cake and cupcakes.  Cake for about 300 people.  I shouldn't be surprised.  Alicia asked me to do the cake for Kellie's bridal shower in September which was for 80 people.  I'd never heard of 80 people at a bridal shower.

Last year I did cupcakes for Alicia's wedding.  Initially she was going to have myself and someone else making the cupcakes and it was going to be 100 for each of us.  It became 200 for me when the other person backed out.  It wasn't that big of a deal.  Sans intricate decorations, cupcakes are much easier than cake and with some help from the Hubs in getting the cupcakes displayed, I managed to pull it off quite successfully.



Alicia's tropical tower of cupcakes

 And somehow I will pull off her sister's cakes and cupcakes.  It's going to require a lot of planning, being super organized, and working diligently.  Most importantly it's going to require that I squash these feelings of self-doubt and shut down that nagging voice in my head that's demanding to know, "what were you thinking?"  I will get it done.  I will also think twice in the future about what I'm capable of challenging myself with and what will be overwhelming.  It's a fine line sometimes, no?